~Confidence~

2010-10-01T10:01:00.000-07:00

我回來了...我最愛的台灣。

陪伴家人的感覺好幸福。

很希望待久一些，

但是要回新加坡打拼念書啦！

挖！

這次回來，

做了蠻多對保健自己身體的療程...

看了醫生..

還去做了經絡按摩。

我的治療師說了我的背好像老人的背 =.=

好硬！

所以我常常背痛到睡不著；

並告訴我說這是因為壓力造成的。

總共拔了八個罐...

背上現在有八個大圈圈。。。

總之按完之後，

我的背輕鬆了好多，

不會這麼痛了。

下個星期三要回新加坡了..

得要好好把握可以休息的日子了，

回去之後，

要拿出全力衝刺啦！

年底了！要好好加油！

2010-09-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

考試前一天...

我居然在寫網誌...

可是...也好久沒有這樣發泄了...

老實說，壓力真的好大...

壓力大、腸胃炎、高燒...

讓我又多了一次看見新加坡醫院急診室的燈光...

手上又多了一個打點滴後留下的淤血...

身邊人總是說我太過於完美主義，

所以我沒辦法忍受成績上的不完美。

說真的，

進了這個學校以後，

我沒有一次滿意自己的成績，

只是對自己一次又一次的失望，

好多挫折。。。

曾經認真想過，

我是不是真的不適合走心理學這條路？

還是說，

我只是需要改變自己的心態，去接受挫折？

擔心自己做不好，

擔心自己忘記東西，

擔心沒學到東西，

總是認為自己沒有站起來、沒有足夠的動力去學習，

所以想要逃避。。。

想要重修...

想要離書本遠遠的。。。

【壓力】...

我不喜歡總是被排在後面，

我不喜歡別人看我的母語是中文，

所以可以接受我在英文語法上的一些錯誤，

我想要變成跟大家在一樣的起跑點上，

我想要變得擁有好的成績、

想要寫出一篇好的英文研究報告或是論文，

想要記得更多、想要吸收的更多；

我嘗試很多、

我努力很多。。。

但都達不到自己想要的。。。

忍住不哭，

但是眼淚總是會不小心從眼角滑落。。。

2010-07-26T07:37:00.001-07:00

2010-07-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

Got Long Long time didnt update my blog...

Haha...

I only uploaded few photos...

Most of them are in the facebook.

Really apologised that I am very lazy to upload them again.

As you can see,

our relationship (Joel & I) become smoother.

We went back to Taiwan together.

He came and visited my family.

We only stayed 5D4N.

We went to a lot of places,

we bought a lot of clothes,

we bought a lot of stuffs,

we ate a lot of food.

Haha, Joel gained 5kg after he went to Taiwan.

After we came back from Taiwan.

We adopted a dog from Joel's friends.

It's name is Alfie.

It is really cute, and friendly.

We really love Alfie.

It seems like my life is wonderful, right?

In fact,

No.

Cos my spiritual level becomes lower and lower.

Jesus is missing little by little in my life.

That is not good.

There are lot of negative thoughts appeared in my mind.

I want to go back to the life with Jesus.

He is the only God I really need in my life.

Seriously,

I really miss the life that is totally filled with Jesus' love.

I really want my life to turn back again.

The new semester of my school started again.

Now is advanced diploma.

Even now is only the second week.

I have already felt everything I learn right now is very challenged.

The essay also become challenged...

1500 words increased to 3000 words.

The essay topic...aiya... really do not know how to start...

I hope everything will be fine in this semester.

I have to be more hard working,

so that I can learn more knowledge.

JiaYou JiaYou bah!

I go and cook my dinner le...Bye~

2010-07-16T03:15:00.000-07:00

2010-05-17T05:45:00.000-07:00

Ytd I went to play arcade game at Marina square.

With my friends.. Serene, Elisa, Themis and Winston.

I had great time at the beginning...

Something happened...

My handbag was stolen.

The whole bag!!!

There are my wallet (agnes b. 400sgd, thats my valentine's day gift!!),

handphone (samsung),

camera (BenQ),

my credit cards,

50sgd voucher (Serene just passed it to me at the morning),

my IC (VISA, school card),

iPod shuffle,

my favorite Bible.

Really sad...

But I know my bag will be found, Jesus is always great.

I really appreciated Elisa, Serene, Themis and Winston helped me look for my bag.

( Even it did not be found. )

They helped me make a lot of phone calls,

and report to police.

The thing I do not like is,

they helped me ask the manager in the arcade,

see whether they can help me check the CCTV camera.

The old man replied us,

"Only I.O. can check the CCTV, and that was your mistake, you did not look after your own stuffs properly."

I did not really care about what he said.

Singapore's service attitude...

I have already used to it.

Who knows...

the similar thing was happened on Joel...

好巧 ( hao qiao )?

He lost his wallet in the bus...

He lost the gift (his wallet) that I gave him...

Hmmm... I also lost the gift (my wallet) that he gave me...

Then we went to police station report our cases...

Jesus, please help us to find the stuffs we lost.

2010-05-06T22:46:00.001-07:00

2010-05-04T19:21:00.000-07:00

Oh.. No..

Got fever since last Saturday!

I really want to change my personality...

and my wrong inner desires...

Not for anyone else,

Its all for JESUS.

I dont like to stay at e same position all e time...

I dont want to be the last...

I really move forward...

To solve my own problems.

2010-04-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

2010-04-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

2010-04-08T10:35:00.000-07:00

Everyone makes mistakes.
Some people know learn lesson from the mistakes...
and make changes.

Change my mind,
change my heart,
and using different ways to see myself...

Be a better person.
I know I am not perfect.
I love to challenge myself to become a better person.

There are some of things made me to feel very down.
I try to stand up,
try to see myself from different angles..
Thinking...
what attitude should i hv...
i cannot always just be short-tempered...
it will make things become worse.

2010-03-31T06:38:00.000-07:00

I really feel very satisfied, glad to get along with Joel's family.

This "family's love" is I never had in Singapore before.

So, I really appreciate that they give this love to me.

It makes me not feel lonely in here.

THANK U!!!

2010-03-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

Got long time did not write anything for my blog.

Correct..
There were lots of things happened.
Try not to think about it.
Dont want to do anything.
I think...im lost on my journey of life.
Again...same feeling...

I want to make something different for my life...
for this year...

Anyway,
I asked many many questions for myself.

Change my attitude for something.
I want to reset my life direction...Can I?

2010-02-09T10:22:00.000-08:00

I must become different.

I know there are some ppl dont like me...

I know there are some gossips which is abt me...

It really hurts me...

But who cares...

The things u said is really boring...childish!

U said u dont like this place is because of others' gossip.

But,

dont u know u r also gossiping...?

No matter what I wont leave this place.

Cos it was u made mistake.

U shall feel ashamed for what u hv done.

U did e wrong thing on e wrong person.

Tell u...

I am e person who is stronger than anyone one else.

Same thing wont affect me anymore.

So,

stop doing those stupid things.

U come here is for GOD.

2010-01-24T01:14:00.000-08:00

Today is Wonderful Sunday.

Even I did not sleep whole night for doing my essay,

I was still excited to attend church and hear gospel.

Today's preaching is REALLY touched me!

Pastor Richard told about the Supernatural of God.

[ God brings us salvation, and the Holy Spirit gives us strength. ]

[ The Holy Spirit is the limitless resource of power in the God-head. ]

I think I am the person who does not really understand God's power.

Even I attend church every Sunday,

even I have the knowledge...

but I do not understand.

So,

after I heard today's preaching,

I just know how the problem I am having now is very serious.

I really want to see there are more miracles happen in my life!

The first thing I want to do is asking God what sins Im still having now.

I want to change completely,

and do not want to do those sins again.

The second thing is Obedience,

anything God wants me to do,

I will go and do my best to finish it,

depend on Him at the same time.

The third thing is I will change my life style.

Talking to God more,

Depend on Him more, etc.

Because I am responsible for my own Spiritual life.

[ God's presence makes you quiet, but His power makes you loud! ]

[ God's presence is yours, but the power is His. ]

[ God's presence will never leave you, but His power can leave you. ]

[ God's presence stills you, but the power of God stirs you up. ]

[ God's presence will not multiply, but the power of God can multiply in your life. ]

They are really encourage me.

I hope I will become maturer of my spiritual.

2010-01-13T22:31:00.000-08:00

Got sick again...

Really annoying me...

Thanks for thats not very serious!

Many things I want to do this year.

There is the certain goal I really want to achieve is...

GOING BACK TO CHILDREN MINISTRY.

I need to build foundational preparation spiritually.

Even though I know what will happen next.

No matter what.. I really want to serve my dearest LORD.

I dont want to live in the fear anymore.

I must overcome this issue.

So that,

I can do more things for JESUS.

Few days before,

I tried to find a Bible verse to encourage myself for this year.

Holy Spirit told me read the book of JEREMIAH.

But he didnt tell me which chapter and which verse.

So I read from chapter 1.

Only read chapter 1...

Then just dont feel to continue reading.

During these few days..

I also read 3 other books which related to the GOD's words.

Cos I thought I was very impatient,

so that I only read JEREMIAH chapter 1.

Until this morning,

I read a book in the train.

The message said dont be afraid,

cos JESUS is with me.

The Holy Spirit refreshed my memory.

And, told me, I also read same thing from the Bible.

Which is, JEREMIAH 1:8

[ "DO NOT BE AFRAID OF THEIR FACES,
FOR I AM WITH YOU TO DELIVER YOU,"
SAYS THE LORD ]

It looks a simple verse.

But I got more information from the study Bible.

God did not promise Jeremiah wont get in trouble.

God promise him that HE will deliver him from those troublesome.

The same thing is,

God didnt say we will be totally saved from our life's storm.

But He will be with us.

His presence is my motivation to stand up again and be stronger for Him.

2010-01-10T21:04:00.000-08:00

Hey Hey Hey

Happy New Year~ Welcome 2010!!

Haha!

I went to Batam for church camp.

Really enjoyed it!

Also got sunburn on my shoulders.

My skin become very dark.

Oh...No No No!

I must be hard-working to apply whitening lotion.

School new term started...on 28th Dec.

There is new lecturer to come & teach social psychology module.

She comes from Australia.

Wah...

hard to understand her English.

Doing my best.

Yesterday my landlady said she found someone can replace me...

the means maybe I can shift to another place soon.

But,

she has not confirmed yet.

I have to wait for new tenant.

She will view the place on Wednesday.

If she confirm to move in...

Then, I have to move out in the end of this month.

Hmmm...

I also have not found new place.

Pray first larh.

I hope next landlord is nice and kind...and Christian!

2009-12-16T09:15:00.000-08:00

I pray for healing,

I pray for forgetting.

I just realized how serious of my problems.

It cannot heal by time.

It only can heal by JESUS.

I am very glad that I am still alive.

I am very glad that JESUS told me how serious of my problems.

HE guides me to gain happiness in my future.

There is a research concluded that...

In family, if the parents are divorced.

there is 70% of the children will divorce with their partner.

How high it is?!

I am glad that I will be the person in that 30%.

Because I believe that JESUS will heal me.

Even though it may take a period of time.

Everything, every step will be worth.

I dont care how much effort i will spend.

I dont care how much time I need to pray for healing.

Because I really want to see the miracle happens on me.

2009-12-14T05:01:00.001-08:00

I am Fasting for FACEBOOK for One Month!

2009-12-13T04:59:00.000-08:00

WeLcoMe EveryOne coMes & JoiN us!

It will be on Friday and Saturday (18th~19th Dec).

2009-12-10T03:44:00.000-08:00

Really got many things to do recently.

I just finished all my essay...

But there are final exams followed by...

From this saturday until next thursday.

I hope I can do it very well..

Cos there are essay questions.

After that,

I must help my Mum do her essay.

Scarlett is going to get married soon.

I want help her to do a video and let her use on the wedding.

But,

there are not many people helping me.

Even I asked someone to help me,

he/she not really want to help me,

and also tried to push it to others.

It is okay for me that he/she doesnt want to give a hand,

the thing I dont like is he/she tried to push it to others.

If u dont want to do,

just tell me u dont want.

Make me feel disappointed on that person.

This sunday will be a long day for me.

I will have cafe duty...hot cakes.

After the service I will have drama rehearsal,

and do Scarlett's video.

After I go home,

I must prepare my the other 2 modules' final exams.

Yesterday,

I called my Mum.

She told me she wants to come to Singapore on 31st Dec.

Until 3rd Jan.

But,

I have already registered the church camp le...

I also told her that I want to go China to attend Scarlett's wedding.

She asked me abt the wedding place... (I told her it will be at XIN JIANG).

I was a bit surprise that she didnt stop me to go China.

She only asked me, "do u hv enough winter clothes in Singapore? Xin Jiang is very cold."

Maybe she has already used to I travel around by myself.

Thats why she nv worried abt it,

I only hope the airline tickets wont cost too much.

2009-12-04T02:02:00.000-08:00

Hello !

Scarlett will get marry next year!

Her wedding will held on 30th Jan, 2010.

Leave your BLESS to her on my tagboard!

Thanks a lot!

2009-12-02T23:58:00.001-08:00

當初你默默的離開

我很自責

一直都認為是我的不對

所以你才離開

我一直以為我從那傷痛走出來了

但是

實質上並沒有

前兩天無意間看到

你有了女朋友

我才知道我在原地踏步

我沒有離開過

我也才知道

當初為什麼我沒有哭

與你相似...都變成我找下一段感情的標準

也才知道

為什麼我對其他人沒感覺

大腦跟我說你離開了

可是心卻在等你

一年多了

你給我的衣服的標籤已經洗白了

我什麼時候才可以讓自己..再變空白..

對不起

我是那樣的不理性

可是還是謝謝你

提醒我該走出來了

2009-11-30T05:38:00.000-08:00

The final exam is coming soon.

The first one will be next Saturday.

I am very Stressed!

Really want to cry.

Write something on my blog,

hope it will help me to release my stress.

JESUS! Please give me the Wisdom.

Exam! Essay! Exam! Essay!

I hope I can do it very well.

I also hope I can be more optimistic to face it.

And, be humble.

Cos my last exam I got DISTINCTION.

Try to memorize more details as I can.

2009-11-27T05:40:00.000-08:00

恩...好累喔...

Hmmm...Extremely tired...

睡覺睡超久的...

Slept quite long time...

晚上七點才起床

I woke up about 7p.m.

還有好多事情要做

Still got many things I must do...

突然有個念頭

不想玩FacEbOoK了...

2009-11-25T16:24:00.000-08:00

最近真的很多人很多事情讓我很反感

先說說學校

三個星期之內要弄好四份報告

準備好四個考試

壓力好大

很緊張

也會害怕

怕自己沒有做好

怕主失望

怕我自己失望

怕我身邊的人失望

尤其是我的家人

有時候事情沒辦法做完

就沒有去教會

上個星期就沒有去

還因為這個跟人起了我自己都沒想過的爭執

說真的

沒有去

我自己都覺得怪

而且剛好又是我在屬靈上很乾涸的時期

可是我很清楚我自己要快點弄完

得要做完我自己份內的事情
（那是我的責任）

否則我可能連星期日都沒辦法去教會
（雖然到星期日也沒有去）

我也很清楚我自己的狀況

我難道不能選擇在家裡禱告、在家裡研讀聖經？

可是別人並不這麼想...

發現很多事情很多人讓我很挫折

是我變了吧...

讓我想去逃避

因為總覺得累

很多事情不敢多想

不想花很多時間在應付人的需求

前幾個星期被罵

就因為我沒有聽到她的需求

罵我罵的很兇

讓我覺得有點無理取鬧

雖然一直都是一樣的人

可是卻已經讓我很反感了

我...回嘴了...

不斷的誤會又誤會

從來沒有想過...別的原因

我沒有聽到？

人總不能在同時間做兩樣事情

不能一邊化妝、一邊弄作業

我從來沒有想過那會影響我那麼多

畢竟我一直告訴我自己我要以理性的態度去對人

要以禮相待

不管我自己發生什麼事情

心情不好

我絕對不會表現給人看

我不允許我自己情緒化

但是總是有人認為我什麼都可以接受

對我變本加勵

甚至讓我連解釋的機會都省略了

總認為我不會反抗？

人的耐性總是有限的

我不會永遠讓人踩在我的頭上

自己一個人在國外受委屈

永遠不會讓在家鄉的家人知道

讓他們免去擔心

改變自己的態度

一直都是我的課題

我告訴我自己我要巧妙的對人

可是別人總忽略我的感覺

那我的改變...

算什麼...

2009-11-06T22:35:00.000-08:00

These 3 days are HISTORY MAKER INTERNATIONAL CHURCH conference.
Awesome 3 days!
Really taught me many things.
Like how to speak in tongue.
To practice it...it becomes my great homework.
And I also bought 2 books.
Cos I want to solve my some problems.
"How to hear from God", "Going through the Drytimes"
Hope the both of books can help me.

There are some people never learn the lessons from mistakes.
Then, just keep go into the same trouble.
They never knew how much they lost.
They do not feel it...
Its because they do not know the things they lost is the most treasure.
Such the idiots they are.

2009-10-27T04:09:00.000-07:00

I am very excited!
Cos the SINGAPORE CONFERENCE 2009 is coming!
Yup! It will be next week.

Oh..
I will have school exam next month.
Foundation of psychology, Principles of Psychology, Developmental psychology.
Most of exam is about Human Biology...
It is quite difficult @.@
There are many things I have to remember.

Migraine again...
Go and do my school assignment lor~ Bye!

2009-10-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

I try to make myself look good, happy.
But...
Maybe I am really depressed,
so that everyone can see I am not really happy.
I am really apologized for that.

Today,
I told to JESUS many things that I am worried about.
Family, school works, finance.
I am so stressed for all the things.
But, yesterday's preaching was really touched me.
JESUS encouraged me to keep going.
Victory is in His hands.
I put all my hopes on Him.
I believe all the things will be done.

Now,
I really need joy, peace and wisdom.
And, His guide.
I dont know what I can do for all the things that I am worried.
I only can pray, pray and pray.

2009-09-27T09:44:00.000-07:00

Felt quite long time did not come back to Taiwan for holidays.
Because there are many things happened in Singapore.
Really really need to relax completely.
Come back to my hometown is correct!!

Before I came back to Taiwan,
I met someone.
I never thought I will see her/him again.
I was a bit surprise.
She/He told me some things that will affect me.
I believe anyone heard what she/he said will be affected.
Thanks for my memory is not very good (it's optional).
When she/he told me (the first day), it really affected me.
The second day, I only remember half.
The third day, I still can remember abit.
Above the fifth day, I forgot anything.
Ha! I think it is good to me.

I received a good gift!
I saw my grandfather and grandmother (my father's parents) again.
They came from Medam, Indonesia 2 weeks before.
I think I got 4-5 years I didnt see them.
I talked a lot.
I get in the RELATIONSHIP!...with my dearest Family!

2009-09-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

I was disappointed for some of things that happened around me recently.
Especially because I cannot solve them.
I even cannot give a hand.

I really dislike those people.
But I still talk to them.
Even though they always lie to me.

Some people jumped into the dark place.
But they dont know.
They are starting to do sins.
They knew it,
but they dont want to admit it,
they still keep telling others about God.

Ohhh...
Tell you something.
You really do not know?!
The everything you do and the everything you told me I TOTALLY DO NOT BELIEVE YOU.
I always do not hear others' commands about you.
But,
I really can see how FAKE you are.

Stop doing that!
It's very DIRTY!

2009-09-02T23:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was an exciting day for me.
Before I went to Changi airport,
I met Serene.
I left my WooHoo at her home.
Yup! Congratualations~ Serene!!
You do not need to go back to hospital and do the heart medical check-up again.
You will be very healthy forever by God's blessing.
Then,
we went to Yishun for visiting Joanne and Zoe.
Serene bought some clothes to Zoe~
Serene!!! Why you never bought clothes to me?!
I also want to have new clothes~~
Haha! Just kidding.
We left Joanne's place around 6pm.
Then, we rushed down to Yishun interchange.
Haha! Because my flight is 1005pm.
I have to reach airport about 830pm.
I took bus to Tampines,
when I reached home was 740pm.
I got no choice.
I called and booked a cab.
I spent about 10 mins to pack.
Haha!
I reach airport was around 815pm!
I AM SUPERWOMAN LARH!
Under God's blessing,
when I went to the immigration,
the staff was friendly.
We talked a while.
She asked me which school I am studying in.
I told her my school just closed down by MOE because of fake certificate.
She was surprised...and said, "How come there is this kind of school in Singapore?"

Anyway,
I am in Thailand now.
I decide to go around Bangkok by myself tomorrow!
I am very excited!
See you all soon!

2009-09-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

Oh~~ Yeah~
I am going to ThaiLand tomorrow!

2009-08-27T07:44:00.001-07:00

I saw or felt something, I wrote in my blog.
I usually do not mention those people’s names.
But, there are some people who always think I was talking about them.
Hmmm…
I do not want to explain too much.
Or,
Those certain people who think I am talking about them again.
And, give me troublesome later.
I do not want to talk to them too much.
Because,
I do not want them to affect my life.
In this world,
There are some spotlights.
But, it is for U.
It is for JESUS.
Once I give up, I wont chase it back again.
Because I know it is finished.
Even you were my friends.

I am not the person who says give up easily.
Except you hurt me many times,
And I also spent much time on you for persuading,
But you don’t want to listen to.
You choose to do those disgusting things.
I will give up.
I do not want myself affected by you.
It is called 近朱者赤，近墨者黑 JIN ZHU ZHE CHI, JIN MO ZHE HEI.
I choose the people who have pure heart.
I must protect myself.
It is not selfish.
It is my choice, because I choose JESUS.

2009-08-27T07:44:00.000-07:00

I saw or felt something, I wrote in my blog.
I usually do not mention those people’s names.
But, there are some people who always think I was talking about them.
They replied me in their blog, facebook, or msn status, etc.
Hmmm…
I do not want to explain too much.
Or,
There are some people who think I am talking about them again.
And, give me troublesome later.
I do not want to talk to them too much.
Because,
I do not want them to affect my life.
In this world,
There are some spotlights.
But, it is for U.
It is for JESUS.
Once I give up, I wont chase it back again.
Because I know it is finished.
Even you were my friends.

I am not the person who says give up easily.
Except you hurt me many times,
And I also spent much time on you for persuading,
But you don’t want to listen to.
You choose to do those disgusting things.
I will give up.
I do not want myself affected by you.
It is called 近朱者赤，近墨者黑 JIN ZHU ZHE CHI, JIN MO ZHE HEI.
I choose the people who have pure heart.
I must protect myself.
It is not selfish.
It is my choice, because I choose JESUS.

2009-08-18T21:17:00.000-07:00

Why do some people always Lying?
Lying is not the way to hide the secret.
You can choose do not say.
Or, change the way to say.
I know the people who are always lying…
To the friends,
I choose to be silent.
To the closed friends,
I tell them, “Please tell me the truth.”

Why do some people get in the relationship easily?
They always say, “Because of…FEELING.”
It is quite obvious.
That is not LOVE.
Feeling will disappear,
but, Love never disappear.

Why do some people trust his/her friends, not GOD?
Some people listen to GOD’s words less than listen friends’ words.
Because, they only see the surface of one thing.
It is called, “no Wisdom”.

I read a book…
Something is really touched me.
A person with Childish faith:
They will think they wont have disappointment and sadness; God will make us happy; God will answer our prayer all the time; faith always can help us to understand what God is doing; Christian always get strength.

A person with pure faith:
They think God will make us fresh by disappointment and sadness; God will let us become Sheng Jie (聖潔。How to translate to English?); Sometimes God answers [No] or [Wait a while]; faith will help me stand in His authority, even sometimes we really do not understand what He is doing; Our strength is from we admit we are weak.

(秋漢馬丁等著 365靈命日糧精選真理基金會橄欖基金會出版）

2009-07-27T11:03:00.000-07:00

Many friends left us…
Leaders, best friends…
They made decision very fast, so that, some of us were shocked…
Some friends became leaders suddenly…
Until now,
They still afraid…afraid to make wrong decisions… or, do wrong things…

Friends!
Do not be afraid of it,
We can learn from experiences.
Have a heart with Satisfaction and Happiness.
Of course,
Sometimes you will feel tired,
Or want to give up,
You can tell to Jesus and your best friends…
Cry it loudly,
We will surely give you encourage.

Face your problems!
Do not care how it is difficult.
Do not set any limitation for Jesus.
If you move forward and solve the problems,
You will feel everything is worth,
Or,
You will regret of it.
I treasure the tough time I am at now.
I lost my money and health.
But,
I know Jesus is the answers,
He will help me,
and guide me,
So I never feel any little fear.
I know I will become maturer.
We are the children of God,
Living by faith.
Without Him,
Our life is meaningless,
And no hope.

I love my friends.
I really care about them.
Sometimes they make wrong decisions,
But, who did not?!
I even can feel…
Hmmmmm…
Sharon,
I really can feel how much Jesus loves you.

Maybe there were many things happened recently…
I prayed…
I really hope anyone in this world can know God,
Have happiness as well.
There are many people who want to have God’s peace, love, joy,
But they do not have any opportunities to have.
Why?
The people have God’s peace, love, joy;
They do not know how to treasure…
Very sad…Poor…

I really do not like flirt!
Their behaviors…disgusting!
Also,
If they do not chase men,
They are like cannot live anymore.
Flirt! Do not doubt…
Others see you, you are like an idiot!
It is not jealous!
It is a kind of Hate.
Do not do that again, PLEASE!

2009-07-23T08:38:00.000-07:00

Its very Fast...
Now is JULY 2009.
There are many things happened.
Firstly,
its my School- Brookes Business School.
It closed down,
I lost my money- 27,606 SGD.
I also paid the money to CaseTrust for course fee insurance,
but the school took my money,
and didnt buy the insurance for me.
Now,
I dont have any choices,
so we engaged the lawyer.
In the beginning,
I tried to solve the problem...
at that period of time,
everyday i was very depressed.
Until Jesus told me I should use a Happy and Satisfied mood to face my problem.
Different mood to face the problems,
it will make me calm down to think easier.

Yesterday I received my Mum's calling.
She didnt ask me anything about school.
She just told me the result of my medical check up.
(I did the medical check up when I was in Taiwan)
I lost my health...
I got Leaky Gut Syndrome,
it explains why I always got sick, stomach ache, etc.
And,
my Mum told me there are many food I better dont eat too much.
(Its also from my result)
Milk, cheese, yogurt, noodles, soybean, milo, bread, hot chocolate, egg, BBQ, some seafood, some vegetables, etc...
I cannot remember.
What can I eat?
I must be careful,
or the FOOD will make my health worse.
Jesus, Please heal me!

Not able to see few friends every Sunday likes before...
Sad...
I did anything that I can do.
Like recently...
her choice really hurt my heart.
She know that is wrong,
but why still go that way?
You dont know how much we love you?
What kind of love you need?
So that you will feel our love...
You told me you dont think too much now,
but I tell you,
when you start to think about it,
that person maybe already shoot you in the court.
That is illegal.
Stop do it!
Im SURE It wont be good for your future.

2009-07-07T19:01:00.000-07:00

tHe Life iN sinGaPorE staRts aGaiN.
Ytd was IreNe's biRthdAy.
wE weNt to mAriNa SquaRe.
~*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IRENE*~

cOmE baCk onLy 2 DaYs.
I reAlizeD tHere iS nOt many thiNgs cHanGed.
oNly some peOplE beComE diFFerent noW.
I nEed tiMe.
hOw mAnY pRomiSes dO u waNt tO bReak?
I canNot trUst u aGaiN.

2009-07-05T01:01:00.000-07:00

I broUghT mY couSin to waTch ICE AGE3-3G moViE.
My couSin reaLLy enJoyeD it.
SaW his LauGh maDe mE aLso hAppY.
eVen tHough i reAlly thiNk MADAGASCAR iS fuNnieR.

My hoLiday is GoiNg tO finiSh soon.
I aM goIng baCk To SinGaPore toMorroW.
i fouNd I wiLL losE soMethiNg.
I speNt feW daYs to maKe tHis deCisIon.
i doN't wAnt iT afFecTs mE anYmoRe,
sO,
I deCide to cUt iT oFF.
i hoPe it is gOOd foR mE.
U proMiseD thAt u WonT dO it agAin.
BuT,
u brOke it...agAin aNd AgaIn.
I woNt trUst u anyMore.
Ur woRds aRe noNsenSe to mE.
u R seLfisH to Me.
wHo cAn maKe it sO maNy tiMes?
u paY atteNtioN oN me onLy whEn u gEt in troUble.
eveRy timE I hV to pUt doWn alL mY thInGs to Go heLp u.
I am exHausteD...
it IS my lasT sEntenCe to U...[StoP dO the stuPid thiNgs, Go bacK to JESUS.]

2009-07-03T12:54:00.000-07:00

Dont know why i wanna write sth...

Dont want to sleep...

thinking sth...even im tired..sleepy...

I try to let myself keep awake,

be rational,

and persuade my cousin to study hard...

go home everyday.

I think she gives up her life...

just wanna play,

she spend her time on friends more than on family.

I really worry abt it...

Hope she will wake up soon!

Lots of things happened...

Im really disappointed...

Maybe...

Jesus lets him/her leave from my life,

cos He doesnt wanna they affect me.

Thats not bad.

Different people will come to me.

Who is the next?

Hmmmm...

I dont know what Im writing...

I shall go sleep nw!

Tmr I hv to bring Jack (my little cousin) watch ICE AGE 3.

2009-06-27T04:29:00.000-07:00

Oh...Hi...

Let me talk about my summer vacation in Taiwan.

I really enjoy everything...

I met my dear friend-Luby.

She studied in Singapore last time,

and stayed with me.

I went shopping with her.

We talked a lot.

And,

now she is not in Taiwan again...

she goes to U.K..

She is a lovely girl.

This time I come back...

There is something different.

Im talking about my family now.

I found their attitude changed a lot.

Not a lot of quarrel anymore.

I really appreciate that Jesus is working on my family.

Let me see what is miracle.

Even though they are still worship fake idols.

I believe there is one day they are going to fall in with Jesus.

I let myself totally relax.

I only met some of my closed friends.

I like to have something different.

This time...I spend most of time with my family...is what I want to do.

After the dengue fever,

I found I treasure my family, etc everything around of me MORE.

I also realized how stupid I was.

Why could I say GIVE UP very easy?

Why I got willing of suicide...?

Those are for what?!

Only looking forward, moving forward!

It is...有失必有得 (YOU SHI BI YOU DE).

Even I lost something,

I gain something...it is worth to me.

The best thing of this summer vacation is...

I went to Bali with my Mum and her boyfriend.

My Father brought us to go around Bali.

We went many of places.

The photos I will update later...

Sometimes something change suddenly,

when u realized u cannot hold them back.

Then,

just let them go.

Dont put so much emotion on them.

2009-06-18T12:03:00.000-07:00

Wahaha!

Suddenly want to write something...

Got long time didnt touch my blog le...

Cos I hv to be alone...

thats a good thing for me.

I hv to [clean] my brain & heart.

Not only stay away the things I dislike,

but also learn the things from what I saw, heard,

even thats very little.

I let myself totally relax.

It is the time I really need.

It is the time I really hv to [check] myself,

take deep deep deep breath,

and,

FACE MY OWN PROBLEMS.

Stay here is quite good...

that place made me...

dont want to go back...

2009-06-05T10:57:00.000-07:00

I start to nt read some ppl's blog...

Dont knw why...

Trying to avoid to knw something.

I want to understand more abt myself...

Where am I?

How can I increase spiritual level?

I dont want to stay at same level..same place...

Break through...!

Sometimes...

I really afraid to face/think something.

I want to be very happy everyday.

But,

if I want to have a different life,

I have to face them.

2009-06-03T10:40:00.001-07:00

I just confirmed my airline ticket...

Sunday~

Go back to Taiwan!

Yeah!!!

2009-06-03T10:01:00.000-07:00

I want to go home!

I really miss my family.

I have to admit that I am the person who a bit does not know how to treasure the things/people around me now.

Every time I must got some certain experiences,

so that I will know how much they are so important in my life.

I think not only me is this kind of person....

The old always say...珍惜你現在擁有的 (Zhen Xi Ni Xian Zai Yong You De).

The meaning is treasure the things you have right now.

But cos of present environment,

most young people get the things is quite easy.

Young people never understand how much their parents put effort on the work,

so that they can get the good things that maybe others dont have.

Now,

there are so many young people always think...

They shall have this, they shall have that.

Because their classmates/friends have, why they dont have!

And,

cos of this kind Compare hearts,

there are many of parents have to 省吃儉用（Sheng Chi Jian Yong）,

or start to gamble...etc...

Jesus!

He teaches me to Look Around,

to treasure them,

and,

stop complain!

I got many things that others do not have!

In fact,

I dont need to teach tuition,

thats what my mum told me,

she also does not hope I work now,

she wants me to focus on my study.

But,

I choose to work,

and,

I start to know Earning money is a hard thing.

Even though sometimes I really dont want to work,

I have to go!

Because,

the students are my responsibility,

I want to help my mum.

(If you really love a person,

you never want to she/he is exhausted.)

And,

I also want to learn more things~ independent life...

I am not little girl anymore.

2009-05-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

Got long long long time didnt touch my blog.

I moved to the new place.

Hmmm...

the landlady...I dont know she is nice or not...

no comments.

She doesnt allow me to wash too many clothes,

because it will waste too much water and electronic.

One week I only can wash <4 shorts.

Of course she doesnt allow me to use air-condition tooooo long time.

But,

I never!

I only use it before I go out.

A bit unhappy.

I signed the contract,

in the contract,

I am allowed to use them.

If I need to download something,

she said I have to ask her permission.

It is a bit over!

Dont talk about it.

Just dont care about it!

Last saturday,

I admitted into the hospital emergency.

They took my so much blood.

I did not teach GK last week...

Sorry, Joseph...

Cos of fever,

hospital doesnt allow me to go back to Taiwan.

then,

on Mon,

they asked me to do the blood check up at Community Disease Centre.

Stayed at there one night.

Hehe...

thanks Kell, Nic, Serene, Joyce and Elisa came and visited me.

Especially when I felt quite lonely.

Now,

I have not completely recover yet.

Dont know why cannot concentrate.

Maybe next week I am going back to Taiwan.

Yup...Delay about 1 week.

Cos I got Dengue fever.

A bit embarrassed.

Anyway,

I just want to go back.

Now,

I cannot have driving license...

time is not enough.

I have to come back before 10th July.

So,

I have another plan.

Having English lesson...for IELTS test.

2009-05-12T10:26:00.000-07:00

We took the photo on the bridge...

on Family fun day (last sat).

it is outside of Normanton park...

we love the light!

Thank u! Elisa...sent me these photos! ^^

2009-05-12T02:06:00.000-07:00

This week is my Relaxed week.

Haha...

Even though I hv to pack for moving.

At least,

better than my last week ah...

Let me talk about my last week bah!

Since last Thursday,

started my busy life...

not enough time to sleep too.

Brought black eye circles every day.

Last Thursday,

after I gave tuition at Yishun around 17:00p.m.,

I rushed to Tampines at 19:00p.m. to meet June for viewing the house.

I like the house,

so, I signed the contract on that day.

June, THANK YOU~

>"< That is quite far away from my present house (AMK).

It was 23:30p.m. when I reached home.

Yup...at that time...Wo De Gu Tou Dou San le...

But,

it was really worth,

because I found the new place.

On the Friday,

I met Serene at afternoon for the Bible study.

Because there were many things happened.

A bit affected us...

We encouraged each other.

Then,

we went to Little india - Mini Nepal.

The last dinner with Jay.

He went back to China le...

Serene and I waited for others coming from 18:45p.m. until 19:30p.m..

After the dinner,

it was 10:00p.m. le bah...

Exhausted day again...

In fact,

I really hate Waiting!

It really makes me very tired.

But,

it makes know if I have appointment with my friends...

I wont be late!

Haha!

Saturday was a good day for me!

Before I went to Pastor's house,

I watched movie - Fast and Furious 4 with my friend.

It was my first time I watched movie at morning in Singapore.

Even though I was a bit sleepy.

The movie is really good lah! Haha!

After the movie,

I went to Pastor's house...

Haha!

Played the games and BBQ.

Met so many friends.

It was great!!!

At the Sunday morning,

it was my last time to take cab with Zheng Kai and Chong Hwee.

I will move to Tampines this Saturday.

I went to Roger's and Joanne's wedding at the evening.

Joanne is really pretty!

All the dishes were delicious too.

Quite long time I didnt go other's wedding...

a bit cannot use to it...

Hmmm...

Typed so much rubbish...

Now I am very serious!

I dont know why I want to talk about RELATIONSHIP again.

There are many relationship's foundation is only on Feeling,

and is not on Love.

How Feeling is weak on relationship?!

I got in this kind of relationship before.

3 months later just broke up.

Feeling will disappear.

But,

Love wont disappear.

Dont need to be sad for this kind of relationship.

Because it was not in God's plan.

If sad...maybe it's Regret.

If still love that man...it is so Stupid.

There is no other ways can be healed,

only Moving forward can be healed...

Stand up again!

We have Jesus' love.

We hv to stand up as soon as we can,

so that we can work for God.

Yeah~ Jesus, I love You!!!

2009-05-07T12:22:00.000-07:00

Now is 3 30 a.m.,

in fact,

I wanted to post earlier,

but I must did my quiet time first.

Today is a long long day for me.

I gave the tuition to the kids.

When I was teaching,

Sis June called me,

she said there is house I can view today.

After my teaching,

then I rushed to the Tempines to meet her.

I have to say God really bless me.

Ytd I prayed...I need a new place.

And,

today I found a new house.

It is a clean place.

There is only landlady stays in the house.

That is the place I really need.

Because I really dont want to stay with kids anymore.

I need a quiet place.

Even though Tempines is a bit far to Toa Payoh.

Haha...

Okay lah!

Finally I found a good place.

The mean is I can go back to Taiwan for holidays~~~

Yeah~~~

I really need to spend more time for my quiet time.

I have desire to get closer to God.

There are many people need encouragement at this moment.

Read more...I can use more God's words to encourage them.

And,

become their whole day strength.

Hope I really can help or encourage them.

2009-05-05T10:58:00.000-07:00

Oh...no...

My cousin also got relationship problem.

She broke up with her boyfriend.

She said,

there is no butterflies in her stomach when they meet up.

no trusting.

But,

bad words instead.

The bad words r from her boyfriend's lips.

I know that makes girl's heart painful.

I got this kind experience before.

Especially the girl still love the guy so much much....

I got few relationships before...

Hmmm...

Now,

I know I must treat my relationship very rational.

Be a smart girl, protect ourselves.

Do not get in a relationship too fast.

I hope my cousin can learn a lesson from this relationship.

Because they knew each other only 5 days,

then just be together.

In fact,

when I heard their situation (Chinese new year),

I just knew they wont be together long time.

I only told her a bit about that...

said...be careful,

ur family is more important that ur boyfriend.

Hehe...

I think she needs experiences to grow up,

become maturer.

So,

I did not say too much.

She is very sensitive.

If I told her too much,

she will do more stupid things.

It is the best way that let her experience it.

I also told her a bit what I learn from our Godly women workshop.

Hope she can do that...

Sharon,

I am waiting for you.

I will protect you.

Dont listen others' bullshit.

Crazy dog likes barking.

Haha!

I can accompany with you anytime..if u want to call me or ask me out.

Jia You oh!

2009-05-05T04:19:00.000-07:00

Headache for looking for a new place.

ok...leave this problem to Jesus.

He will solve it for me.

Yesterday I went and viewed a house.

The owner worships Japanese idols.

(with white candles in front of that box).

Its very scared.

At night,

I found I really afraid of darkness,

mirror...etc.

Surely,

it affected me.

Pray! Pray! and Pray!

The game is over.

He/She fell down seriously.

Accept him/her.

Love my brothers and sisters.

2009-05-03T12:20:00.000-07:00

這幾天我在讀【使徒行傳第三、四章】。

彼得和約翰因為傳福音而被捕入獄，
不論是甚麼樣的危險，
我們必須隨時做好準備，
畢竟為神工作總不是突然的。

之後，
彼得和約翰很勇敢的在審判公會前向那些領袖傳福音，
告訴他們耶穌的復活，
而不是為自己的行為做防守或是辯護。

雖然現代的科技天天都在進步，
並且提高了解決問題的能力；
但是要明白其原動力都是以耶穌基督的聖名而來的。

基督徒在很多事情可以開放，
但是唯獨在得救的事情上絕對不可以含糊；
對於別人的不信，
自己能做的就是堅持下去，
對他們，
我們自己行為和態度的改變，
就是最有影響力的見證。

許多時候神允許困難在我們的生活裡，
我們可以祈禱，
祈求神賜給我們勇氣和解決問題的能力去勝過我們面前的困難。

我們身邊每樣東西都是神賜予給我們的，
和他人分享，
只不過是在和大家分享神的東西罷了。

大多數的教會都會處於內憂外患的環境下，
內部的問題像是欺瞞或是行政上，
外部的問題像是要承受逼迫的壓力。
完成我們自己的責任，
我們大家都擁有一樣的使命就是宣揚基督的福音。

而我們必須隨時都要保持警覺的心，
以免撒但藉著我們的弱點，
攻擊我們的內心和控制我們的行為。

Faith不會叫困難因此消失，
但是卻叫我們用正確的觀念去面對我們的困難。
並不是每個人聽到真理的反應都會是正面的，
也許我們會因此受到一些威脅，
但是我們必須要重視神的看法超過別人的觀感。

作為一個基督徒，
我們有時候會和一般社會上的價值觀或是規範產生摩擦或是矛盾，
但是順服神還是最重要的。

誰都無法敗壞神的工作，
畢竟神總會使用一些意想不到的人完成祂的旨意。

2009-05-03T00:58:00.000-07:00

Since yesterday I just felt not well.

But,

I felt so blessed.

I prayed everything I need,

God answered my prayer.

Because I really want to attend the Sunday Service.

That is the most important day in a week.

I tell myself I cannot be the bad girl again.

I remember the story that Ps Kelly told us.

One day, there is a man is on the way to go home.

He saw a bad girl.

She looks very poor,

he thinks maybe she needs help.

Then,

he asks her does she need any help?

She said she needs Money.

He takes out his wallet, there is 7 dollars.

He gives the bad girl 6 dollars,

because he thinks at least he can take bus by that 1 dollar.

But,

that girl is very unhappy,

she could not understand why the man did not give her 7 dollars,

only give her 6 dollars.

then, she attacked that man and run away.

Yup! We were like that bad girl.

God created 7 days.

Monday to Saturday He allows us to anything we like.

He only requests every Sunday goes to the church,

and listen the gospel.

I dont want to be that bad girl anymore.

Today morning,

Pastor Richard shared about Discover Our Potential.

Everyone of us gets potential from God.

And,

it is not obvious.

Make our potential become obvious only we can do it.

The kingdom of God is like a seed!
1. Small beginning but large outcome.
2. It is so small that it could be blown out.
3. When the kingdom is revealed, potential is released.
4. Potential is unlimited capacity.
5. God is mystery.

Something is true...

if I did not receive Jesus,

or, in my life without Jesus,

I think I still dont know what is my potential,

Im still confused for my future.

1. Each one of us have a seed of faith.
2. Do not despite the day of small things.
3. The potential was locked in the genetic code.

Lastly,

1. The first key is a willing heart.
2. Have an abiding relationship with Christ.
3. God's promise is ours through Jesus Christ.
4. Set a vision-set the direction.
5. To tap intro your potential you must work hard.

天下沒有白吃的午餐！Tian Xia Mei You Bai Chi De Wu Can!

Friend...

What mean of [friend]...?

Told him/her thats a wrong decision or wrong direction.

He/She rejected our advise,

and said we should respect his/her decision.

Yup...

It really makes my heart painful.

For me,

I treat my friendship...

I never said I feel disappointed with my friends.

If you want to listen,

you just do it;

if you dont,

I also dont mind.

Because I know I did my best.

Dont know why some people like fall down at the same place.

Did you heard 當局者迷，旁觀者清 before?

The mean is others know all the truth,

but only the person in that situation is blind,

dont know what is correct? What is wrong?

They usually think they are TOTALLY CORRECT!

Why this kind of bullshit happened on me?!

2009-04-29T10:45:00.000-07:00

I made some mistakes few days ago.

It is against God's rules.

I feel so apologized to God.

I said sorry many times...

After today's meeting,

suddenly I felt I should read the Book of Acts.

I got long time did not read new testament.

At the beginning,

when I read it,

I was thinking why I read this...

What is that for?!

Then,

when I read until Acts 1:16.

I just think I was wrong.

For this scripture,

it tells me,

people make mistakes is because of his choice.

We make mistakes,

because we refuse God's warning.

And,

Acts 2:14-15 tells me,

Peter didnt recognize Jesus 3 times.

But,

God forgave him, raise him up as well.

He became a total new person.

Humble, brave.

No matter what sins I did,

I should admit it,

and ask forgiveness.

Like today Ps Kelly said,

dont think that is others' responsibility for my sins.

Like King David,

once he knew he made mistakes,

he said sorry immediately.

Now,

I cannot change the past.

But,

I can ask for God's forgiveness.

Follow Jesus,

depend on Him,

seek His guides, words.

Even though "changing" will make people feel not very good,

and give up the some bad behaviors also very difficult;

God will us wonderful future.

Everything starts from Zero,

for re-building my foundation of the relationship with Him.

Be a [ FAT ] person!

"Faithful", "Available", and "Teachable".

Then,

I open my e-mail...

It is a powerpoint...

When I was reading the first few slides,

I still felt so depressed for the mistakes I made.

Until the last slide,

I was a bit shock,

thinking...aiyo, why the words become so big.

the words that in the slide write...

[ Keep smiling.

It is one of the best advertisement for God.

It makes people wonder what you have got. ]

It is like telling me,

dont be depressed le!

Cheer up!

In the future,

you will comfort others by your experiences.

Moving forward! Dont look back anymore!

一切都是巧合嗎？

Praise LORD!

2009-04-28T22:41:00.000-07:00

Yeah~~

Today is the last day of this term.

I will have about 10 weeks holidays.

I am going back to Taiwan!

Hmmm...

Above one month~

so I will learn driving and try to get international license.

Before I go back to Taiwan,

there are some things I have to do!

I have to finish them!

But,

not convenient to post.

Hehehe!

Not because of you oh~ Pastor Kelly.

Someone else larh!

Pastor Kelly,

never saw u tag...say [ Hi~ ] to me bah!!

Dont need to log in u just can tag le.

Really expect to go watching movie with Kelly on thursday.

Even though I havent decide what movie we are going to watch yet.

In fact,

I really want to watch ICE AGE 3.

Thats the only cartoon movie I never felt bored in theatre.

Do you believe God is coming back soon?

I believe He will come back in my generation.

Since so many bad things happened...

Diseases, financial storm, etc.

Those are from God.

He announce,

[ Come back and get Jesus' salvation! You will get freedom. ]

Now,

I also do my best to learn more righteousness.

Even though I only spend 15 mins to read study Bible before I leave house.

I found,

God's little knowledge is enough for my whole day.

God's all knowledge is enough for my whole life.

Just see whether I want to do it or not.

2009-04-27T10:56:00.000-07:00

Yeah...

Holidays is coming soon!

These month I am really busy.

Busy for Easter, school assignments, GK, etc.

Yup, of course,

went out with friends.

Enjoy busy life!

But,

remember living by faith.

I dont want to walk away from God because of these things.

Busy is not the reason for walking away from God.

It is a specific time to pray more.

Hmmm...

I want to solve some problems in my life.

I really dont want this problem to affect my spiritual life.

Have a different life is my purpose of this year.

And...

Now is really not the time to get in relationship for me.

Got no heart to have it...

2009-04-27T08:38:00.001-07:00

GK and LP children~

WOW!!

They are really really cute!!!

They make my heart MELT!!!

2009-04-22T01:11:00.000-07:00

I just asked my schedule of next term from school.

they told me they give me option...

Because I took that module at my previous school.

I can choose to not attend that class.

So that,

maybe I will have about 10 weeks holidays.

But,

I am thinking what I can do at this period of time.

It is quite long.

I really want to go back to Taiwan.

How long?

Or,

I stay here...

to teach tuition,

and help church...

>"<

Dont be happy first!

I have to submit 2 assignments next week.

I have to start it now!

Bye~

2009-04-21T10:29:00.000-07:00

Today I read the book of Revelation.

Serene gave me a website...

Revelation 13:16-17
16. And he causes all, both small and great,
rich and poor,
free and slave,
to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads,
17. and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast,
or the number of his name.

The "mark" is the facilitator of the 666 economic system,

which is linked with the beast's name,

number,

and image.

(http://users.cybertime.net/~ajgood/rev13.html)

Hehe...

In my blog,

I think I cannot write too much.

In this time of judgement and confusion on earth,

we have to make the correct choice by God's wisdom.

Ask God's wisdom and guides always.

2009-04-19T09:50:00.000-07:00

I did not attend today's Sunday Service.

Felt guilty...

A bit crazy busy...

I really enjoy it.

But,

I still have to try my best to attend service as I can.

I want to have a different life!

Of course,

I want to have a different life with God's righteousness.

Obey His words.

I want to obey His words,

not just because afraid of His judgement,

I want to obey his words from my real heart.

I also want to know more friends.

That will be better to me.

Hope I can bring friends to get Jesus' salvation.

And...

I wont feel lonely too...

Hmmmm...

Lonely is a devil...

it will make people do the stupid things.

Hey! Friends...

When you see me,

please share with me about today's preaching...

and Godly women workshop.

2009-04-14T09:33:00.001-07:00

Why did you make same mistake again?

So stupid! So idiot!

Where is your brain ah?!

Ask you to follow GOD's words,

you don't want to!

Why do you like to find the trouble to yourself?

That is from Devils!!!

Wake up!!!!!

Hey...

Today I went to have dinner with Serene.

We went to cineleisure to have Japanese pasta.

Haha...

Then, we went around there...

I bought 1 jeans, 1 shorts.

We went to tpy mrt..

Sit there and drank KOI bubble tea...

We chatted a lot.

Our goals, our experiences, the things we are going to do...

We encouraged each other.

Wise people learn the lessons from others' experiences.

2009-04-13T09:15:00.000-07:00

Haha...

Easter day drama finished le...

Many people said we did the good job.

I am really happy that you guys like it.

Now I should pay attention on my school stuffs...

Hehe...

Next Tuesday,

I will have one presentation.

And,

two weeks later I have to submit two assignments.

Wah...

This week I will go to chalet at sentosa.

4 days 3 nights.

Still need to work too...

So now I do my quiet time on the train or bus.

Wah...

Hope I will have more time to rest.

I have to JIA YOU lah..

2009-04-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

It is 23:25p.m. now.

My Mother just sent a message to me...

"I dont know how to do my 2000 words report.

the lecturer asked us to find the Journals and write the report.

So,

you have to help me le!

Cos I have to submit it tomorrow before 12p.m.."

Then,

I called back and asked her how should I help her.

Anyway,

it is really a big problem.

Because she just realised that psychological journals needed to charge.

I was a bit angry.

Every time she inform me last minute.

Then,

every time, everyone has to sleep/dont need to sleep just for her report.

Really tired!!

But,

I still have to do larh!

Because she is my Mother!

Jia You!

Dont sleep one night is okay de!

But I will be a bit crazy tomorrow.

Happier than all of you.

Chen Mei Li! Yeah!

2009-04-07T08:08:00.000-07:00

ToDay is tHe fiRst daY of thiS teRm.

I taKe EduCatioNaL psyCholoGy thIs teRm.

The leCturEr is frOm AmeRica.

sO,

we haVe maNy oppoRtuniTies to tAlk abT ouR oWn opiNions.

SomeTimes I reAlly donT knoW hOw to disTinguiSh a thing or deciSion is Good or not...

It is really coMplex...

Dont knoW hOw to deScriBe it.

I reAlly rEally tHink I am diFFerent wiTh beFore...

A bit afRaid of it...

Now,

I consiDer a thIng is froM maNy aSpeCts.

I was a bit sHoCk..

beCauSe laSt tiMe theRe werE [Yes] or [No].

And,

now if I facE the DeciSion or a thinG.

I wiLL conSideR tHe faCtors..

WheRe the faCtors coMe ouT..?

WhaT the cErTain thingS caUse this...eTc...

ThaT is aLso poSsible...

Oh...YeaH...thE oTher also cAn be oNe oF thoSe reAsoNs...

so...

I taKe out maNy preVioUs thingS...

And,

Think, tHink, thInk, thiNk, thinK.

SomeTimes I neeD others' oPinions...

But,

otheRs tHink I aM chilDish...

Hehe!

K...Dont miNd it!

2009-04-05T15:50:00.000-07:00

Today morning was the first time of this year I did not attend the Morning Prayer.

Just felt very tired, and sick also...

Hmmm...

At this time,

I was thinking so many things.

It made me uncomfortable.

But,

after I attend the Sunday Service,

I saw there is a person came-quite long time did not see him.

I felt very encouraged.

The thing I did is follow the sentences by The Holy Spirit.

I really never thought...

WOW! The feeling is very good.

It erased all the thinking that made me uncomfortable.

At the afternoon drama rehearsal,

It really made me exhausted.

We practiced it until 7p.m..

So that,

I slept at 10p.m..

Because we made some changes.

Just wanna show the best to everyone.

Hope that day there will be so many people...

and also,

get Jesus' salvation.

There are some photos I took...

also didnt knw why I took them...

We showed to the Pastor Richard.

It is the meeting...for discussing some changes.

People look very tired le...

See! What did Althea do?!

2009-04-03T09:46:00.000-07:00

It is the last week of my school holidays.

I spend more time to stay at home and do my own things.

As well as, thinking how do I increase myself...

like spiritual level,

how do I manage my timetable,

and some study plans, etc.

I hope it wont be just Thinking,

I can do it also.

Haha!

I also change the blog skin...

hope u guys will like it!

In this period of time..

I mean my holidays (3 weeks),

I did so many things.

I try to build the friendship with different people.

Some of them,

last time I really did not want to talk with.

And,

I also build deeper friendship with my classmates,

I think it is the first time I am so closed with my classmates.

Now,

I am learning to encourage people,

hmmm...

different people different ways.

I also went out with Pui,

he came for working.

Haha~

he went back on wednesday.

I did not send him to airport,

since I was not feel very well.

But, the day he reached Singapore,

Jess, Raytheon and I brought him to have dinner at Taiwan's restaurant.

Then,

we went to Bishan park.

We went for tasting red wine.

It made us so relaxed.

Now,

I am trying to find the time to go to apple shop for buying new iPod shuffle,

the one [the first music player that talks to you].

I just got my salary,

I wanna use it to buy the birthday gift to my Mum.

I think she will like it.

Hehe~

I will buy two,

one (black colour) to me,

one for her (white colour).

I really want to cut my hair,

and do nails art.

But,

Good Friday is coming,

I mean...drama...

So that m appearance cannot change too much.

I am considering that...

be the part-time staff at the church.

My next term's school timetable is extremely relaxed.

I will only take one module- Educational psychology,

so I attend school only twice a week,

totally 6 hours.

Wah~

But,

I do not know the schedule of my degree level.

So...

I have to ask more information.

The photos... Tao restaurant, the place we brought Pui to. These are some dishes.

2009-04-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

Today is Stanley's birthday.

Happy birthday to him~

Yeah~

We went to Cathay have our dinner.

Had a good time.

I really really HATE the people call me DA LU REN.

It makes me very angry.

Especially,

I was angry for this so many times,

bt he/she still do it.

Its really frustrating.

This week is the last week of school's holidays.

I spent so much time with others.

So many fellowship.

I really enjoy all of them.

Even though there were something unhappy things happened,

but i still treasure them,

cos they were the experiences that God gave me.

Some photos...

2009-03-27T08:56:00.000-07:00

Got fever these few days...headache...when I cough my lungs are painful. Hope I will get better soon. I have to teach GK on sunday. Hmmm...maybe it is my challenge. God wants me to become children's leader, of course devils do not. I have to be strong!!!

There are so many things happened recently...church...family...friends... Need to talk to them more... Become a bit busy, but it is the life I really love. God also gives me this opportunity to reach out more friends. Everyone needs help, i also need. But, help others is the thing that really can make me happy.

2009-03-25T06:26:00.003-07:00

It is busy holidays...

But, I really really enjoy it.

I spend much time on fellowship with my friends;

Teach Chinese tuition;

And, pray.

Renewal, rekindle, and revival.

I really feel I get closer with Jesus.

I think I know how to distinguish the Holy Spirit's voice and my voice.

I wanna keep on fire!

I have to spend more time on talking with God.

Now,

I talk to God even when I wait for the bus comes.

Hehehe!

Pui is in Singapore now!

He reached ytd.

He comes for working and holidays.

Ytd,

Raytheon, Jess and I brought him to have dinner.

Got happy evening.

Sunday...

I am going to teach GK with Pastor Debbie.

Wah~~

Jesus~

Please give wisdom! Please~ Please~

So that I can learn from Pastor Debbie.

Recently I am really too busy...

I have to work at daytime.

After reach home, rest about few minutes,

then,

start to help my Mum do her report.

Or,

go to church service.

And,

now! I get cold!

Hope it wont become more serious.

Because I dont want to influent to the children on Sun.

Jesus!

I need Your healing!!

Hope the honey lemon drink also works!

Friends!

Please dont walk away from God.

He is really really nice.

2009-03-08T16:29:00.000-07:00

HeLLo~ Guys~

Got long time I didnt post my happy mood le.

Yup!

There is quite long time I was upset for something happened.

But,

now I have already solved them le.

Especially after listened Pastor Richard's preaching on Sunday.

Purpose!

I have it!

But, devils like to stop me!

Devils love to see I changed my mind!

Stop do that to me!

I have JESUS!!!

At this moment,

I think it is the good time for me to do GOD's tasks.

He gives me this opportunity again...

I mean...go back to GK ministry.

I have put my effort as much as I can to do it.

It can let me forget something unhappy.

It also can let me increase my spiritual level.

I have desire to get closer to GOD.

So,

I have to Chong Ah! Jia You!!!

I did not attend Sunday's morning prayer...

>"<

Sorry...

I had the BBQ party with my lecturers and classmates...

Haha!

Very funny...

Because I got long time I did not release my stress le.

I also got long time did not play until i go a bit crazy.

(My lecturer was shock...>"<)

Thanks everybody.

By the way,

Thanks Jess and Mr Lam (my lecturer) sent me to home.

Thanks! THANKS!

2009-03-06T06:14:00.002-08:00

Ytd I went out with Timothy,

we had lunch together,

and discuss the essay topic.

We discuss it until evening.

Haha!

ThaNks, Tim, teach me patiently.

We went to Katong mall and meet Jess, Ray.

We had Japanese food for our dinner.

We had wonderful evening.

I feel I am different.

Because I put Jesus at the first place in my heart.

No matter what did people say.

Somebody hurts me...

and the thing is I really hate.

So that,

it makes me do not want to talk with him/her.

Yup!

That is my limitation!

I even did not tell him/her that is my limitation.

Because I think I hv already told him/her there was somebody hurt me with the similar way.

But,

he/she still step on it.

Made me upset.

Now,

I am okay le...

I do not want to think about it anymore.

對我來說，他不過只是利用我罷了，接近我不過只是想要找一下樂子，等到覺得我不再有趣時，就甩開我。我該要怎麼對待人，我也會有不開心的時候啊！口口聲聲說我們是【朋友】，可是，當我不開心的時候，卻理都不理我，只因為我不有趣... 因為我哭... 當我在哭訴我身邊有困難出現時，你只想匆匆結束話題... 掛掉電話... 不想再聽到我的聲音... 我...很失望...

2009-03-04T17:43:00.000-08:00

I feel not well...

But,

I still have to do my essay.

Tmr is DeAdLiNe...

I have not finished yet.

Also,

get in some trouble...

Annoying...

I always let myself look good...

I think...it doesnt really work...

Stress...Trouble...

Make me cry...and shen jing zhi (神經質）.

I dont think every one can make it...

So...

I have to calm down myself...

Solving my own emotional problems...

is the most important lesson I have to learn.

I also have to say SORRY to those people I angry with.

2009-03-02T22:15:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my busy day...

Morning I woke up just started to do my assignment...

Afternoon...

watched movie "Marley & Me" with my classmates at J8..

(Timothy and Jess)

Good movie..

But,

the thing I didnt like is it made me cried...

After watching the movie...

I rushed to my student's house in 30 mins(Yishun).

A bit tired...

After teaching,

Rushed to AMK to meet my classmates again...

and went to Chinatown to meet church friends...

I reached home around 11 p.m.

Then,

continued to do my essay again.

Until 2 a.m....

really could not do anymore...

I really felt that my brain disappeared...

>"<

I really afraid that I cannot finish my assignments on time.

But,

I have to JIA YOU!

2009-02-25T10:37:00.000-08:00

Today was Phase 3 Practical...

So many things happened in my life recently...

Until I reached home...

I still cannot stop my tears...

Very sad...

But,

I really expect the New Iva appear...

Become maturer...

smarter...

higher spiritual level...

Now is 2:43 a.m.

When I can stop crying...?

2009-02-24T08:58:00.002-08:00

Today,

I have already submitted one of my essay le...

I got one more.

I have not started yet.

Cos I dont know how to do it...

The essay question is,

"Some people commented that "the right brain controls human emotions.' Do you agree with this statement? Critically evaluate this with evidence." (Neuropsychology)

Yup!

I have to write about Right Hemisphere.

Hmmm....

Thanks for my classmate gave me some information just now...

Timothy~ Thank u!

He is very nice person...

Haha!

He also sent quizzes to me...

So that I can copy a bit...

I treat u a meal next time bah!

If ur girlfriend allows...

~Mature versus Tears~

There are some problems happened in the life....

No matter that will make me cry a lot...

for me,

Those r my treasures.

I can learn lessons from each of event.

I love to be maturer.

I want to do anything better and better for my life.

Even though environment n social pressure always let me cannot breath.

I have Jesus!

So that I dont afraid the problems I am facing.

Keep going...

2009-02-20T09:38:00.000-08:00

Hooo...

I am very stressed...

Very busy...

Migraine...

I cannot finish my essay before Club J.

And, also...

one of my classmates will come to my house n do the essay together...

she does not knw how to do the reference n citation.

She asked me to teach her...

Hehe...

She has already book me since last term.

Guys~ Enjoy urself bah!

If u got any friends,

pls introduce them to me.

I also want to learn to reach out more new comers...

2009-02-17T03:54:00.000-08:00

Today...

I got so many experiences...

Some are good,

some are not very good.

I wake up around 12 pm today.

There was tutorial at afternoon.

I went down n got some food.

Then,

I started to rush preparing to go to school.

Before I go out,

I usually spend one and half hour to prepare myself.

...Too rush...

so that I forgot to bring Ez-Link card.

I realized it when I got in the bus.

I also did not have any coins.

So,

I change money with a passenger.

A bit embarrassed...

I was late...

When I went in the classroom,

the lecturer was still preparing the lesson.

Then,

the end of the class,

I discussed with her about my essay.

She guided me.

So that,

I know how to write it.

When I was at city hall...

Before I took MRT to go home,

there was a person gave me a name card.

She said she is from the model agency company.

And,

she also said if u want to,

I can go to that company and interview.

I only replied..[Oh!].

Hmmm...

I am not interested in that.

2009-02-11T15:42:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I reach church about 16 45 p.m..

Haha!

Cos I have to tell to Joseph about my Memory Verse lesson.

He said what I prepared for the children is quite ok...

but it still needs to do little change.

It was separate meeting...

Pastor Kelly talked about God's will.

A successful man is finding out God's will in his life and fulfill it.

After the meeting,

somebody made me very angry.

Because of his/her lips.

Anyway,

I was extremely angry...

It made me rush to the bathroom to take shower by cold water after I reach home,

so that I just could let myself to calm down.

Holy Spirit told me,

"You have to learn how to talk with her...

cos there are many ppl r like him/her in my future time..."

K...it makes me better...

I have to learn...

I HAVE TO LEARN IT!!!

2009-02-09T13:14:00.000-08:00

Hey!

There is a good news!

I got DISTINCTION of my last term's module.

I am very happy to see that.

Because this is the first time,

this lecturer gave me this score.

But...

I do not know what is going on with me...

I just do not want to do my essay this term...

Got so many things to think about...

I really want to do my own things recently...

GK,

increasing hunger for God, etc...

I know I shold be more hard working on my studies.

But...dont know why just dont wanna touch it...

I really want to go back to Taiwan...

In here...

I always feel lonely...

This time...

After I came back...

this feeling is more obvious...

I try to let myself look better...

but...hehe...

It does not really work...

Still miss my family so much...

Went back to Taiwan is like a dream.

I know I have to wake up...

but my heart doesn't want to...

Insomnia again...

2009-02-06T09:38:00.000-08:00

Hey!

I just came back from TaIwAn.

Very tired...

Hehe!

My Mother bought me a new laptop.

New MacBook! I love u~

Since I was a child...

I wanna have a pet (dog/cat).

But I cannot have it.

I wanted to call my pet "Wu Hu".

Now...this name i want to give to my MacBook!

Baby! Your name is "Wu~~Hu~~" now!!!

Mum~ Thank u!

Tomorrow I have to do my essay le.

Oh...No!

I have to do my best on my work!

2009-02-04T10:46:00.000-08:00

This time I come back…

I think I didn’t do many things…

But…

I spent so much money…

It makes me wanna cry. Oh~ No~

I didn’t buy many clothes for myself.

I bought some stuff for my friends and my family.

I bought a clothes for my Mum,

she likes it!

Hope my friends will like the stuff I chose for them.

Not everyone is happy for this Chinese New Year.

Including me…

I tried to let myself look very happy,

and enjoy everything.

But I am not really enjoying them.

Some things were happened in my family.

I am really exhausted for all.

There are many times I try to help them,

they r didn’t work…

What can I do right now?

They r my family…so I cannot give them up…Its what my Mother told me.

Must has a rational person stands between them.

When r u coming back?

When do u decide to come back n be my good sister?

We love u.

But,

Why don’t u give us chances to love u…?

It doesn’t mean anything.

Why don’t u forgive her?

She is ur mother.

She just doesn’t know how to communicate with u by a correct way.

Please come back,

n accept our love.

2009-01-30T10:18:00.000-08:00

Hey, guys!

I am in Taiwan.

I really have good time with my family.

It is the first time I didnt quarel with my grandmother during Chinese New Year time.

And,

I also shared more about Jesus with my dearest Mum and cousin.

Haha!

Of course I went shopping with my family.

I bought a pair of shoes n jacket.

There was a promotion at department store.

My shoes only 50 sgd...(the original price is 150 sgd).

I really love that shoes.

These two days my Mum takes a trip with her boyfriend.

So,

I have to stay at home looking after my cousin(he is only 9 yrs old).

Even though my grandmother is also at home.

I really worry about her.

She becomes more forgetful than before.

Hmmm...

The day before yesterday night,

my Mum told me,

"The SUAN MING XIAN told me I will ZHONG FENG this year."

When I heard that...

I was a bit angry.

I just said,

"Dont listen his bullshit."

For me,

that is just a stupid curse!

I told to Jesus about this.

He will bless my Mum...I believe.

2009-01-25T09:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~

Today is [CHU XI],

I was still excited to attend church morning prayer and service.

Pastor Richard's preaching was really touching me.

Title is,
[Facing the Financial storm in God's way].

1. Famine in the Land.
2. Partnership with the World!
3. Stewardship v.s. Ownership.
4. God reminds the covenant to Issac.
5. Like Father like son.
6. Prospering in crisis.
7. Dig your Wells.
8. The LORD made room for Him.
9. He left an inheritance to his children's children.
10. He builds an alter.

(P.s. I dont have time to write the details,
now is 1:40 a.m.,
and I havent packed.)

After the Sunday service,

I went n meet Ruth,

I accompanied with her to buy sth...

and I also have to buy some potato chips...

for going to Pastor Richard's house n have Nian Yei Fan.

Later...

I went to Pastor Richard's house with Angela.

We ate steam boat.

WoW~

We got good time~

In fact,

haha!

I also discussed with Pastor Debbie abt Children Ministry.

I told her I wanna go back.

She also asked me the reason I left GK last time.

We talked a lot.

She allowed me to go back again.

Thank u~

I have to pack now...

Really got no time le...

Bye~

2009-01-18T23:31:00.000-08:00

Photo A:
Puji(left) is my maid,
the other one is my neighbor's last maid.

Photo B:
I really love to take the photo for my eye bow.

Photo C:
Haha! Last year,
after Singapore Conference,
we sent Pui to airport.

2009-01-18T06:23:00.000-08:00

I felt not very well today…

But I was still very excited to attend church’s Sunday Service.

Even though Zheng Kai, Chong Hwee and I took bus to church today.

We were really tired with [long journal].

We decided to take taxi to church next time.

Why do I want to attend the Morning prayer?

What is/are my purpose(s) for the Morning prayer?

For me,

I really want to how to recognize what is my voice of my mind, what is Holy Spirit’s…

I need God’s direct guide.

In fact,

I recognize I have this problem is when Dr Jerry prayed for me.

He prayed for me that God’s confirmation…

Haha…it is about…go back to Children ministry.

Last year,

there was a voice came out from my heart...[go back to Children ministry].

Because I am not confident of that,

I did not spend much time to consider of it.

Until Dr Jerry gave me this confirmation from God.

I just knew…

I really have to spend time to learn how to recognize Holy Spirit’s voice.

My favorite thing is reading novels.

I got many novels.

Most of my novels are thicker than The Bible.

Yup,

I can finish to read my novels.

Why I cannot finish The Bible?

It is my additional purpose for this year.

After the Sunday service,

I had my lunch with the girls at Manis Manis.

After that…

I went home and slept…from 16:00 p.m. until 19:30 p.m..

Maybe I feel not very well,

so I slept quite long time.

2009-01-17T04:30:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was Winston's Birthday.

Happy Birthday To UUUUUUU~~

There r many ppl went n celebrated for him.

There r the photos I took by my mobile phone.

Haha~

We really had wonderful time yesterday.

I went to school this morning.

There was degree preview.

I was quite angry after I saw the modules I will study.

Yup,

they said after we graduate we r going to get two certificates.

One is psychology,

the other one is business management.

Until here, all r very good.

After I counted the modules...

8 modules r about psychology,

12 modules r about business management.

I AM NOT INTERESTED IN BUSINESS MENAGEMENT.

I paid much money,

I just want to study psychology.

Why should I spend money on the course I am not interested in?

There is classmate told me,

its very good.

Because if I wanna get two certificates at other school,

maybe it will cost 30,000 SGD.

I just thought I have already paid almost 27,000 SGD.

Do u think I really care about that 3,000 SGD?!

Everything is tooooooooooooooooo IDIOT!

After that,

I wanted to collect my transcript.

But,

they said my transcript was lost.

...

=.=

The photos r in my mobile phone...

2009-01-13T09:30:00.000-08:00

I have already bought the airline ticket.

I bought it this afternoon.

Yup!

I am going back to Taiwan on 26th January.

And, I am coming back on 06th February.

This semester of my school,

I take 3 modules.

Psychological writing, Cognitive psychology, Neuro-Psychology.

Last week was the first week of this semester.

Hmmm…

Anyway,

I got new challenge.

It is really difficult.

But,

I have already promised to JESUS n myself:

I WONT GIVE UP.

Hehe!

I hope I can do it well.

Jia You arh~ Iva!

2009-01-12T06:59:00.000-08:00

Hmmm….

I got long time didn’t update my blog.

Hehe!

I make a friend…

He/She is very nice person,

In fact,

I knew him/her very long time.

But,

recently I just started to chat with him/her a lot.

I thought I was not very talkative,

I mean…haha…[quiet person].

When I started to talk with him/her,

I just realized I am very talkative,

and I got so much [Fei Hua].

Because we spend very long time to chat.

That is the reason I don’t feel much lonely n bored as before.

I really appreciate him/her spend his/her treasure time with me.

Every time I talk to him/her,

I really feel very good,

maybe there r too many things kept in my heart.

Hehe!

Do u wanna know who is that person?

HaHaHa~ HoHoHo!!!

I don’t want to tell u~~~~~

Is that person in our church?

I also don’t want to tell u~~~~~~

This afternoon,

I had my lunch with Grace.

Hehe!

We want to know each other more.

After the lunch time,

I believe I will have good time in her cluster this new year.

^^
I am going back to Taiwan on 26th Jan.

To celebrate Chinese New Year Day with my family.

After I came to Singapore for studying,

I become treasure the time that I spend with my family.

I haven’t bought the airline ticket to come back.

Maybe I will stay in Taiwan about 2 weeks…

2009-01-02T09:32:00.000-08:00

Haha! Happy New Year.

I went to Malaysia and joined the church camp.

The first day (31st Dec),

we took the bus at morning.

We reached there at noon.

WOW!!!

The hotel is really really good~~~~~

Such like 5 stars hotel.

Haha!

I still cannot remember the name of hotel.

The afternoon,

we had funny games.

Because it was raining,

so we had the games at indoor.

We had BBQ dinner beside the swimming pool.

That was not bad.

About 9 p.m....

we appreciated with some people.

Haha!

I cried...when I said [thank you] to Joyce.

She really helped me a lot.

We also gave our Pastors a big hug.

Then,

Pastor Richard lead us to countdown.

Wonderful night~~

I did not bring my mobile phone's charger.

So, I did not take any photos.

Happy New Year!

Jia You in 2009.

Do all the best on achieving the goals.

God is with us all the time.

2008-12-26T10:38:00.000-08:00

Firstly,

I have to Thank God found a good house for me.

I held a Christmas Party at my new place on Wed.

Amk Ave 1...

I invited our church female members to come to my house,

had dinner together...steamboat and BBQ,

play pool.

There were 8 ppl,

Avice, Elisa, Jo, Kelly, Ruth, Serene, Sharon, Zen.

Thanks u guys came to my house.

Thanks Ruth n Elisa help me to prepare the food.

Thanks Jo, Kelly, Sharon and Zen bought some food for us.

Thanks Avice brought dessert for us.

Thanks Serene...even u r tired, u still came n celebrate with us.

Thanks Jesus gave us good time to us.

2008-12-21T23:25:00.000-08:00

Today was the Christmas Party.

Its the first time,

I joined the Christmas Party.

Its also the first time,

I saw the turkey.

So excited,

the taste also very good.

All of the church members did our best on drama, dance, and sing.

Very funny.

Hope u guys like my role- Niang (Mummy).

Merry Christmas!

Anyway,

girls!

We will have party at my house on 24th Dec.

If u wanna join,

u may sms me.

My landlord said we can play his X Box 360,

as well as pool,

table tennis.

Hmmm...

But,

sorry...

only for our church members.

2008-12-18T12:00:00.000-08:00

School Holidays…

So relaxed!!!

So that I have more time I can read friends’ blogs.

Its my first time I realize there are many friends read my blog.

Hmmm…

I am really appreciated that many friends care for me.

Some of my friends left church.

Some of them do not want to answer my phone call,

as well as do not want to reply my sms.

I…

Am very sad…and disappointed of it.

Of course I wish they can come back.

I do not give up to pray for them,

I still contact them,

Even they do not reply my sms.

Hehe!

One of my goals of 2009 is…

I want to meet and know more friends.

I hope I will be busier than this year.

Spending more time to do fellowship with new comers.

There are some foreigners come to our church.

I really like to talk with them.

I also want to help them.

I am a foreigner too.

So I can understand that the feeling of staying other country.

Very lonely…

At the beginning,

Maybe do not know that is Lonely;

A period of time later,

On the certain holidays coming,

Just realize that is Lonely.

After Jesus came to my heart,

Jesus’ love filled in my empty heart.

I really want to spread out Jesus’ love to others.

I really want to share with them how wonderful of His love.

Jia You!

2008-12-12T20:30:00.000-08:00

On Thursday was my exam day.

It is Abnormal Psychology exam.

I think I did a terrible job.

In fact,

I understood the questions.

I also know the answers.

But I dont know how to describe and explain them in English.

It becomes my experience,

and,

this experience is worth for me.

So,

in 2009,

I want to have a break through on my English.

I have to put much more effort on it.

Cos I cannot depend on others always.

Now is my turn!

I decide to go to church camp with everybody.

I have already told to Pastor Kelly.

And,

On Thursday after my exam,

I went to China Town to apply my Malaysia visa.

Next week it shall be come out.

When I told to the officer in tourist company...

"I would like to apply the Malaysia visa."

I did not tell him I come from Taiwan.

Then,

he gave me the application form of China.

When I wrote on the half way,

he told me,

"Sorry, I did not know u r Taiwanese,

u should fill in another form."

I said,

"Its okay."

When I got the application form for Taiwanese.

I was a bit...SHA YAN (傻眼）.

Cos it asked...

My hair color, eyes color, etc.

Anyways,

the form is quite different with China's.

But...what can I do...

Just filled in.

I went shopping with Sharon yesterday,

we talked alot.

I bought a clothes~~~~~

I really love it!

Sharon also bought a dress.

^___^

I chose for her.

She said she will wear it this Sunday.

Now is my holiday.

There is only 3 weeks.

In this period of time,

I can think about my 2009,

what r my purposes of next year?

I can improve my relationships with God.

Yup,

I cannot only pray when I am in the trouble.

And,

I will also preview my modules for next term.

I know my English is still weak.

I also know that I have to spend much more time than other local students.

But,

I wont give up,

facing and breaking through my difficulties.

Everything...only for our Holy Father.

2008-12-07T02:48:00.000-08:00

I went to church today.

Hehe...yeah~ In fact, I didnt want to go.

But,

yesterday I received the sms from Zheng Kai,

he encouraged me to try to attend the Sunday Service.

Just think...oh...yeah...

I should attend,

because I really need encourage.

I really received GOD's love today.

Pastor Richard's preaching really touched me.

Trusting GOD...

Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and learn not to on your own understanding."

Proverbs 28:26 "He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe."

For this coming exam,

I think I depended myself too much,

as well as too stressed, too nervous,

also didnt take rest well,

so that I got serious migraine that I never had before.

Now,

I know I really can't depend myself.

Trusting GOD and He will bring me to go through the darkness.

Haha!

I also have to be hard working for my exam.

But, I really need to relax.

Before I take this course,

I thought...

Hmmm....

Specialist Diploma is same with Diploma course just basic knowledge.

But,

now I really think Specialist Diploma course is more difficult than Diploma course.

I spent more time on my study than before.

Of course,

I also have to spend time on the relationships with Jesus.

All the things...

make me dont have spare time to develop other things.

Hey!!!! Sharon,

we have the same vision.

Thats why we are so close.

By the way,

please remember to check your schedule and fellowship with me.

2008-11-23T01:09:00.000-08:00

I think Im too stressed...

This week I did my essay until the time of sunrise.

And,

Yesterday,

I did the stupid thing.

Because I am doing the essay of personality disorder.

When I did the etiological part,

"The individuals with borderline personality disorder experienced the physical or sexual abuse in their childhood."

I let myself fall in that emotion.

I became very sad.

I mean...not rational...

So scared...so stupid...

When I found everything is different on me,

I stopped doing it immediately.

And,

let myself take good rest,

pray to Holy God.

Then, few hours later,

Zen sms me...

haha, actually i didnt tell her about this.

"No challenge is too difficult for the Lord, look to Him alone."

God asked me to leave all things to Him.

Trust Him.

He wont let me get in the sorrow for this again.

I have to JIA YOU~

Jesus, I LOVE YOU~

2008-11-14T06:32:00.000-08:00

Before the conference,

I submitted my Human Bio essay's draft to my lecturer.

The title is,

"Is there really anti-aging products or techniques in this world?"

Last Saturday,

he returned my essay.

And tell me something I have to change in the essay.

Not a lot.

I asked him what marks will you give me...

he said I can get C (60~69).

In our school,

the highest mark is D (70~79).

I was really happy that I can get C.

Because this lecturer is very serious.

When I was in Raffles,

he failed one of my essay.

After that,

I took his other module,

he only gave me pass (50~59)...

Haha!

It is a break through!

But,

he said I still need to improve my language.

I put much effort on it,

it is really a big harvest on my study.

Yeah~~

2008-11-11T09:29:00.000-08:00

Got happy three days of Singapore Conference!

Also learn many things on it.

Made some friends.

Congratulate to me!

The third day of conference,

I got my student visa.

So good~

Jesus~Thank You so so so much...

But...

didnt know why...

I was not very happy and peace on that day...

>"<

After the conference,

be hard-working on my study.

There is an exam coming on this thursday...

A bit stressed...

no confident on it...

dont know why...

Depressed on it...

Because I want to do my APA essay and exam be Perfect!

I do more research than before.

I want a higher result.

I always tell myself Im so stupid to be depressed on it.

Just do it!

More hard-working...

If nt enough...

just more and more...

until I satisfied of it.

Just now I read my cousin's blog.

Car accident happened on her last friday...

That is why I felt a bit not happy and peace on that day.

After I read the blog,

I called her.

She got depression last time.

So I tried to encourage her.

I also promised her that i will pray for her.

Yup...

She will go n stay at hospital one month.

She will have surgery...2...

She is my dearest sister...

We grow up together...

We share everything...

I believe God will heal her!

Faithfulness!!!

When I told her I will pray for her.

She said thanks,

but she doesnt believe in God.

I said,

I believe God will heal you,

and you dont have to worry everything.

2008-11-03T09:56:00.000-08:00

I really enjoy studying in the new school.

Even though the course is more difficult than diploma.

I really enjoy it.

I have nice classmates.

When they knew I come from Taiwan,

they help me on my study.

And,

they are also encourage I speak english more,

even sometimes I made some mistakes on it.

Learn psychology will let me become more rational.

For me...it is good...

Hehe...Girls mah...

Yup!

I will continue to do my best on it!!!

2008-10-30T05:00:00.000-07:00

I think last week I ate dirty food.

(My doctor said)

So,

until yesterday,

I was still stomach ache.

In fact,

I was really unable to attend the church.

I really didnt know where the motivation came from...

I just thought I needed to go!

Then,

I went to church...

I think God really bless me.

Hahaha!

Cos until the end of prayer meeting.

The uncomfortable feeling of my stomach was completely disappeared.

Yeahhhhh~~~~~

~*Confidence*~

~Confidence~